what can i do?

I am sorry. I wasn't ready for that. If you wanted to know how's my day going? It's suck.

Working is fine. Better than what had happened then.
I was home having dinner. Then she called to me, said don't you remember we have a plan? What plan? You just told me that. Okay. I still agree to go out. As the day still young, watching the Slumdog Millionaire is not a bad idea. I like to watch good movie. Then i wait, from 7:30pm to almost 9pm. And my time just gone like that. I was supposed to sweep and mop the house, doing the chores, and i just couldn't. I knew there must be something happend so you were late. I understand.

How long we knew each other? I have rules to follow in my house. Every family is different. And my family is different. I respect my parents, for what they constraint me to do, they are in a good point. If their idea was wrong, i will be the first to fight with them. You knew that i cant go out late, back home late... etc... For many times before, you like to ask me out at last minute. Mom did asked me many times of "what kind of friends are they?" Can't they just asked you early? With a plan or an early inform, everything can go well. I can go out with friends, no problem at all. Even went out late or overnight, they will agree. If i dont do that too frequently.

In a friend of view, take myself as an example, I will advoid to bring trouble or unconvenient to my friends. I know the rules and I wont let them break the rules. I sure will avoid it happened. They won't be a problem to meet their needs and i don't get why it's so hard for you guys. Not everyone has the same thought. I understand. Just can't feel sad and disappointed. No one is wrong.

When watching the movie, I asked you to guess whether the clue he gave is right or wrong? Who will you believe on? Just like I used to do with my family. To grab their attention and make fun of the show. That's not about whether you get it right or wrong. No contain of win or loss. It's just a guess for fun. That's simple. However, I can't stop the disappointed, as you take the win and loss so serious. The answer is not that important, i care of the process. I wish to bring you fun when you wanted to know the answer, you put more heart on it, on a thing. That's a good thing to do. You can watch a movie from start till the end with nothing happened. Or you watch a movie and someone give you a quest and you are lucky and smart so you get it correct. But what you had said to me, i feel you are more concerned on "So you get it wrong, you loss." Maybe you didnt mean that and you dont aware of that. No matter what had happend, i hope you always can focus on the good impress but not the bad side.

What a coincidence, i read an article today. It said that there are two winners in a game: The Winner and the one who enjoy the game but lose. I hope you see the connection between the story and us. As it does to me. And tonight, i cant be the winner, i wasn't expect to get that answer from you. You might will read this, and i doesn't write this to make you sad or what. It's just my feeling on it. I couldn't ask for what i think you should answer.You just be yourself. But i were hoping that you know me, you understand me. I was for a very short moment, couldn't focus on the movie and thinking of that. "Oh, Thao will get me, Miao will know that i'm just asking to make fun. Why don't you? I know that's unfair to compared and I soon get back to the screen.

Everything is fine. I just have a sad time on a day. Luckily not a whole bad day. We have been apart for quite a period, we changed. I can easily share my days, my thoughts, my feelings to somebody, but can't do that to you guys. I am so sad about this but it's true. I so wanted our relationship can keep as the old day. However, the more i hope, the serious i suffer, the deepest i get hurt...