sometimes you just couldnt find a person

Today is so not my day. I did everyting wrong. Even a simple filling file, i could write the wrong figure on it. Just to copy the old file, that simple. I did it wrong. Stamp the COPY to the photocopies page and i got it stamp to the original one. Cutting the paper to small notes and i dont realise i cut my finger. On msn, said hello to a friend and he asked who is ther? Found out that he got me deleted from the list.

Okay. Okay. I am just having a bad day. Still lucky. Sometimes you couldnt find a person to talk with and today i have 3 friends to listen to me. I just repeat to type the same stories to them. Until they all told me that they need to rest. I am tired too.

Life has driven me crazy. It did. Everyone has their own problem. Where should i start with?

Who makes the life so hard? Me? I blame no one but myself. You know it could be nothing if .... if ... If ... If everything can re-do again. I dont have to think of if-question.

I promise to make a meaningful life to myself and i dont waste a single minute. I am working on it. Everyday, every week with different targets. I do it quite well.

Neighbour uncle came to find me, he wants to get my email address so that he could send me the information of job vacancy of his office. This is really nice right. And he work in IBM, a big firm. I know this maybe a good opportunity. But just... as i am so free at the office sometimes. I had compared for the estimated salary to different situation. If i worked in that firm, i need to have at least RM2200 to cope the expenses and my espected saving. And i wil have less leisure time and i even have to consider a second-hand car to go work, which make it not wise to change the work. Facing the dillemma, i am stucked in the middle.

And i am sleepy. Everything goes wrong since i back. I have no courage to fight with the problems now. I need a rest. Tomorrow, it will not be a problem. Believe it or not? Sometimes i couldnt find a person to listen to me, and today i had 3. When the luck come back to you, you can get whatever you want. When you dare to dream, you will get what you wish.

Give up? I want a break free. Dont you say i'll be better off?

I had a bad day, it just gone.