1152

the time is 1152

i feel nothing is right
dont know what should i do
how to spend my weekend my sunday

reading?
no
sleeping?
no
no
no
nothing i want to do
nothing i can do

khim told me about her 'today's plan'
she will go to the sunday market
then enjoy a cup of coffee
then go to work at KC
how nice
you know what to do
you dont feel lost

and i do
what should i concern now?
what is important to me?
working?
or life?
money?
or dream?

i had a dream last night
i dreamt of the sea
i dont re;member what had happened on the sea
but the sea made me feel comfortable and stable
only in the dream
when i woke up
i felt happiness for a moment
and it is gone now
replaced by complicated
fill up the heart

ok ok
try not to think of it
make it go away
i should make a cup of coffee too
try to calm down
smile ^^
to ease the tightness of life

i should
every weekend
went out breakfast with parents
i should
talk something funny
bring the happiness to everyone

i shouldn't
so easily been knocked down

i should have a dream
i should have many dreams
i should know it
and work on it everyday

not like now
reminding myself every times but nothing is on progress

nothing is done
the big lost is growing

i know who i am
and i hate who i am