Reading back the dairy. OH MY GOD, this is really hard. I haven't move over the past. Even many times I said it, but I didn't mean it. I know. Nothing is changing good, it is getting worse.
Looking back the blog, I used to record in English, and now, no anymore. Why will this happen? I don't have the confidence. Miao is right, I lost something in my heart that I didn't aware of it. Maybe I did, and I ignored it. That's bad.
It has been eight months since I back to home. Do I gain something or lose something during this period? The matter of fact is I am a loser. A totally loser. Hate it but can't deny it.
10:17pm, you haven't online. Will you online tonight?
Oh what should I do? Apply for a new job, preparing well in the interview, get the offer. And start another boring life, make it repeat and repeat and repeat until the end of my day? Where is my dream? I don't wanna just live in the world, I want more, I want my life.
Since I back to here, I have a request. Why is everyone behave selfish? Why they don't share love? I do understand some people experiece different life and ..... lie alot to cover their weakness...
What's wrong of being honest? I rather tell the truth than a lie, and a lier couldn't stop lying... Bad things keep coming up after that. Then why still lie?
Don't understand, and don't want to understand.
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