dear

when i saw the message
i felt funny

first at all
alex is just a name to me
it doesnt mean anything
it is just a past of my life
i dont take that event as serious as you thought

when i replying your message
i think about it over and over again
i felt sad
you should have faith on our relationship
you should have faith on me
or to be more correct
you have to believe on yourself

how could you do that
how could you compare alex with you?
he is nothing to me
a past that i dont even remember
and you
you are my best friend forever
my treasure of life

i cant say that you are my everything
but you are definately one part of it
you influent me alot
and you are so important to me

i have to make it clear here
nobody can take your place in my heart
yet until i found my another half at least
you and kit are special to me
you guys mean alot to me

when you doubt of our friendship
you doubt of me
and the more
you doubt of yourself
which
make me more worry

and ...
i read the message again
you got my name wrong again
im the person who will care about little things little action from people i care
but to you and kit
it doesnt work
even you guys will always do something that disappointed me
but i know that you guys are not do it purposely

i had hurted by u guys before
but i never doubt of our friendship

there is nothing between us
no misunderstood
you feel that we are being apart
because you heart is weak now
with the old problem
i really hope that i can help you to get away of it
but i know i failed
and the problem is you
for these years
with too much consideration
with the environment that surrounding you
you became over-protective
you need help but you cut the way and not letting people to help you

and you should move over of the past
it is useless to keep blaming on yourself
you have do nothing wrong
dont always want to recover something which is not exist
there is nothing bad on the past

your heart is sick
and you dont let yourself go free
invisible lock with you
nobody could help even they try to

you are still that good and unique
not only for me
but everyone
you just dont know that