失敗者的飛翔

生活亂糟糟
沒有一個序
亂了分寸
我在做什麼
到底在做什麼
別人知道
我卻不知道

這樣子的生活
很讓人害怕
每一天
每一個清晨
當眼睛睜開
沒有一個目的
我想我漸漸可以了解哥的感受

逃避的人最懦弱
最差勁 最失敗

只是有一些話想說

如果不快樂
吃多少塊炸雞還是不會快樂的

我和弟說
我的那兩本藤井樹很好看
一本讓我笑個半死
一本讓我哭個半死
你想要先看哪一本

然後弟說
我的物理已經可以讓我哭個半死了

哈哈哈

看完一部電影 一本書
再洗個澡
應該夠我冷靜下來

今天的面試出乎我的意料
他沒有問太多的問題
只是我白緊張了幾個小時

昨晚我夢見了阿信
夢見阿信和我聊得很開心
後青春的詩讓我想起你 想的很夠力
很想給你一個緊緊的擁抱
雖然隔了一個大橋
還是能感受到你溫暖的微笑
你就是可以這麼適時的出現

上星期旅行的一些行李
還堆在床邊的角落
還不能收拾
好像有一把聲音這麼對我說
你真懶惰...

So Close So Far

Sometimes I do feel that we are so close to each other.
Apparently, I was wrong.
I thought I understand you quite well.
I was wrong again.

If dessert can sweet up my life, I will eat.
If alcohol can ease my sadness, I will drink.
If staying is so hard, I will leave.

Find a way back into love.

Reading back the dairy. OH MY GOD, this is really hard. I haven't move over the past. Even many times I said it, but I didn't mean it. I know. Nothing is changing good, it is getting worse.

Looking back the blog, I used to record in English, and now, no anymore. Why will this happen? I don't have the confidence. Miao is right, I lost something in my heart that I didn't aware of it. Maybe I did, and I ignored it. That's bad.

It has been eight months since I back to home. Do I gain something or lose something during this period? The matter of fact is I am a loser. A totally loser. Hate it but can't deny it.

10:17pm, you haven't online. Will you online tonight?

Oh what should I do? Apply for a new job, preparing well in the interview, get the offer. And start another boring life, make it repeat and repeat and repeat until the end of my day? Where is my dream? I don't wanna just live in the world, I want more, I want my life.

Since I back to here, I have a request. Why is everyone behave selfish? Why they don't share love? I do understand some people experiece different life and ..... lie alot to cover their weakness...

What's wrong of being honest? I rather tell the truth than a lie, and a lier couldn't stop lying... Bad things keep coming up after that. Then why still lie?

Don't understand, and don't want to understand.

不然可以怎麼辦?

原來真的很難
要找一份新工作
就要先催眠自己喜歡上那份工作
不然interview的時候要怎麼掰?

掰... 不下口...
沒辦法說謊...
白色的謊言?
這種算嗎?

我不要成為一個庸俗的人...
這樣子的人生沒有樂趣

好運什麼時候還開始呢?

有無數的問題
有無數的答案
有無數的疑惑
有無數的不願意

人生就是充滿矛盾
少一點都不行

討厭的低潮期...
還要照顧別人...
那裡來的美國時間?
今天等不到我就放棄...

The best is yet to come

一葉 . 自由

我又自由了
可是我自由嗎?

過去的就不管了
要活在當下
不要被不理想的同化

每一片葉子都有自己獨特的紋路
要相信自己是獨一無二的
這一刻開始
要為自己的內心聲音負責
不要忽略自己的夢想
堅持的不為別人而活

你有夢想嗎?
還記得執着嗎?

I am back.

漫長的旅行結束了
明明只是一個禮拜
每一天卻感覺漫長

八月了
不知不覺就到了第八個月
你知道嗎
每一天都值得慶祝的

其實想發泄一些負面的想法
卻剛好聽到楊丞琳的慶祝
這句話我喜歡

曾經
每一個禮拜
每一個週末
每一個月的第一天
每一個月的最後一天
我都慶祝

為什麼現在卻沒有慶祝了呢?

和Naoto聊天
聊起咖啡
聊起一個夢想
一個暫時被擱淺的夢想
今晚要好好懷念

想對自己說
歡迎回來
一路上辛苦了
想得到的東西
有緊緊的握在手上嗎?

今天以後
要繼續加油 ^_^